Life can be so great! Life can be so hard. There are times that you believe everything should keep falling into place, but it doesn't. I believe in prayer. I believe in getting answers to my prayers. Now, I am learning that just because I pray about it and get an answer, that doesn't mean that those answers are just going to fall into place. There are times when you have to fight for the answers to come true.
Right now, my trial comes from getting the answer I didn't want, and now having to fight for it to happen. I feel like my faith and dedication are being tested. Really tested. And I don't feel like I am passing the test, yet. But I am determined to see this through.
To fight for something you didn't think you wanted, because you know in your heart it is what God wants for you.... this is one of the hardest things I have had to do. This is my chance to make something that is a weakness for me become a strength. To truly rely on what Heavenly Father wants me to do, instead of what I intellectually decide is best for me. I have always struggled with this.
I am so blessed to have a happy, close relationship with my Heavenly Father. I trust in Him, and I know that I need to rely on Him more. I always think I can do everyting myself, but without Him I am nothing. I guess I just needed a great wake up call to see that I need to live more on faith and less on believeing in my own self.
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